Bucketlist

 The word that has been very popular the last few years. Every one has a bucketlist these days. So do I. That one guy has a very ambitious list, the other one has more work related things, that girl over there has only one thing on it. Not one bucketlist is the same - but we all hope that one day we can cross some things off that we accomplished, visited, made reality,....

So here is my bucket list - in no particular order: 

- being a mother

- finding someone who loves me for who I am

- being happy

- being  positively in control of my anxiety and mental health

- visiting New York, Australia, Italy

- going back to London and Dublin and explore other places in the UK / Ireland

- visiting all Disney parks

- living abroad - preferably UK, Ireland or New York

- have a coffee with Barack & Michelle Obama 

- have dinner with Jonathan Groff & Lin Manuel Miranda

- seeing The Script and Westlife in concert again

- see a play / musical / ... on Broadway and West End - preferably Hamilton, Dear Evan Hansen and Harry Potter & The Cursed Child

- meeting The Script & Westlife

- going backstage at a concert / musical and getting a tour + seeing the concert / musical from backstage

- hanging out at the recording studio and experiencing the vibe of recording a new song

- being on set to a movie / serie

- leading a team at work and being an amazing teamleader


Yes, I do have a pretty long list and I know not every thing will be crossed off. A lot of those things will probably be things that will never cross your mind or be on your list. And that's ok. Once I would have been really embarrassed to say out loud but I don't care anymore. I have to do the things that are special to me!                                                                                      Some things I can take control of and try my best to accomplish. The one thing that everything depends on though - and is on the list too - is getting in control of my anxiety and my mental health. If I don't manage that, a lot will not happen. And I can NOT let that happen.

This bucketlist is what drives me to get better! 


So tell me, what is on your bucketlist?

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